I just want you to know how much I LOVE YOU and MISS YOU so badly. I only wish for your life to be the absolute best and for you to always know that I carry you in my mind constantly. I think about you the very first thought in the morning from the time I wake to the very last thought before I fall asleep every night and in between my days. I happily tell everyone I meet that I have two sons and how old, tall, handsome and intelligent they are. I have always said these things no matter where I was and no matter to whom. These are my feelings towards you. I really do pray for your safety every morning and every night before I close my eyes. I also ask the Lord to keep you safe from all harm and to protect you from all the evils of the world. Just know that in your heart. Keep it there. David, I LOVE YOU unconditionally no matter what. Like Grandpa always said “blood is thicker than water”. He too lives in my mind. I remember so many conversations with him. We may have not always gotten along but I still loved him and I think of him often. He was a leader and I see that quality in you. I saw your changes from a child to a man. I am so PROUD to have you as MY son.
I always knew you were a survivor. You learned fast and taught yourself to walk at 10 months old. I was amazed about the things you learned before I was to teach you some basics of living at such a young age. I truly admire your sense of being and making quick decisions. I miss you David. More than you will ever ever imagine. I will always cherish every moment we have had weather it was positive or negative experiences. I really miss just going to the movies with you all by ourselves. It was rich even though I didn’t have enough money most of the time. I couldn’t pay for those priceless memories. I constantly worry about you and wish everything comes your way to enlighten your paths in the world. I could never be angry with you, you are my son. You and Brandon will always be my number 1. I miss hearing your voice calling me mom and sharing conversations with one another. Priceless…..
I found a birthday card you gave me last year. I keep it on my desk to look at the words that you wrote to me. It says you will always love me always and forever. I walk in your room every day and feel the emptiness knowing you lived here. I did my best and always trying to provide you with space and not crowding you because I respect your individuality and strong mind. I was always trying to analyze you trying to not turn you away from me. I can only hope that someday you will understand forgiveness and realize how much I want you in my life always . I miss you so badly, I feel like my heart has been ripped out. No one could love you as much as I do, believe it deep down even if you never say anything. Take care my precious son, I am truly blessed that you’re my son.
I Love you always forever and ever David,
Your mother
